Under a Dark Cloud


Vancouver

Do I now have any “imagined appropriate roles”? I think it is rather the opposite. That I’m adrift on a very empty sea.

All my life there has been a tension between my need to feel anchored and my reality of being set adrift. I’m now so much more ethereal than grounded that I’m not sure I would know how to be otherwise. I suppose this is the difference between life as it is and how we imagine ourselves in it.

I no longer spend so much time imagining other lives I never had…I try to pay attention to the one I do have.

GPlus Discussion

Jun 19, 2014

nomad dimitri
+1
+M Sinclair Stevens I have felt the same tension. I attempt to get more grounded without making things more “tense”. I think gardening may be good for both of us. I try also to manage irritability caused by petty shit.
I see this as a post that is even better on a meta level: you start with an ethereal cloudy contemplative post and then you hit back with a grounded nuts and bolts comment on chrome.
Missing you and many many other things.
ND

Jun 19, 2014

M Sinclair Stevens
+nomad dimitri I think frequently about the detour in your own journey even if I do not post much publicly about it. I’m glad to see you out and about, some, and mustering enough energy to put on a face to the world. Come back to us.