Last Wednesday after finishing the oral portion of my final exam in Japanese class, I was so happy. No kid waiting for the final bell before summer vacation ever felt more joy. (Maybe to feel the joys of childhood again, one must suffer through the drudgeries, too.) Still, there was today's exam, the written final. But I wasn't worried about it. It was simply the epilogue to the larger story, now finished.
Yesterday was dark and rainy, my favorite type of day for studying. Unfortunately, I had an allergic reaction to some medication I'd been taking. I broke out in itchy spots and couldn't sleep. I felt tired, achy, and miserable. I was in no condition conducive to study. I tried to sleep, but couldn't. But I was too tired to do anything. I managed only to crawl into bed with my Powerbook and headphones and listen to the dialogs in iTunes.
I felt better this morning, but when I sat down in class, I realized I'd left my glasses at home. There was no time to go back for them. Luckily, sensei uses a very large font on her tests. Luckily, too, the test wasn't hard. It's over now. I should feel happy, but I just feel drained and let down.
Enough whining. (Thanks for listening; I do feel better somehow.) Okay! Now to come up with a study plan for summer.
Posted by M Sinclair Stevens
May 07, 2003
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I should be happy, but I'm not.